Written at 1:19 AM on Tuesday, February 7, 2012 0 comment(s)
AKU RINDU KAU !! )":
Mane aku nak lepaskan rindu pun aku tak tau .
Next week friday baru kau book out . haishh )":
You know what ?
I keep on thinking about you until i myself fall sick .)":
Keep sneezing and I'm starting work soon .
Hopefully I get well soon .
I miss how you take good care of me when you are here .
I love you <3
See those two ? I love them ! I get to meet them yesterday .
Anyway , it's already been 3 days my guy is in camp . I feel like I have no where to go . No where to pampered with . I'm waiting for him to book out . I wanna share what I've been through and more importantly about the Grandma that I talk to yesterday . It was a horrible thing to do for a child to kick their mother out from that house .
Syurga di tapak kaki ibu . Seteruk mana pun dia tetap ibu kau ! Ya Allah , kau maha kuasa dan maha penyayang , bukakan lah pintu hati anak nya untuk terima dia pulang dan juga tolong lah jaga hambamu itu yang sedang kesepian di luar . Sesungguhnya aku akan cuba sedaya upaya aku untuk menolong nya . Dari itu aku meminta tolong dari kau , untuk tolong aku . Give me the strength to help this elderly woman as I can't bare to see her suffering this way . It's not fair ! It's not fair for her ! How could her children do this to her . Ya Allah , guide me through while I'm trying my very best to help her in any way .
This goes out to all of you guys . Please , jaga ibu kamu . Syurga di bawah tapak kaki ibumu . Seteruk mana pun dia tetap ibumu . Dia bukan orang asing , dia ibumu ! Mungkin kerana perangai ibumu yang kau tak boleh tahan . Tapi fikir ! Kalau ibu kau tak ada , kau pun tak akan ada dalam hidup ni ! You are a disgrace to me . Tolong berterima kasih kerana selama ini , ibu kau yang membesarkan kau ! Yang bersusah payah angkat kau seberat gitu di dalam perut dia tu !
Be thankful to those who still have their mother around . Coz if you don't , I hope you get what you deserve on the judgement day !
Hafiz Safiuddin .
See that guy in the picture ? Yeah , he's mine ! So back off . He's all I've got now other than my family members . He's the best thing I ever had that entered in my life . He's gonna serve NS now . So I won't be going out much . I'm gonna spend my time working and schooling or I work all the way .
Your birthday falls on the 9 and you are in your camp . It's fine , but baby , I'm gonna give you the best present . I'm sorry but your present will be delay . I'm sorry . Please wait , it's gonna be big . I promise . Accept it , coz its for you , your birthday present . And I'm gonna search for jobs . I wanna buy something for our first anniversary plus your birthday present . It's a promise .
I admit , you are the first guy that I had a long relationship with . So I really hope that you will be mine for the rest of my life . Coz after you entered , you have totally change my life . I guess , without you , I'm still outside , hanging around with friends , drinking here and there . clubbing and all the shits I've done . I won't give up on you no matter what , so please , appreciate me while I'm still here . ok ?
I'm proudly to say to others that you are my only men . I trust you . I'm gonna put full trust on you to take good care of me ok ? And I want you to put your trust in me while you serve your NS . I'm gonna be good . Coz I can't bare to lose you . I won't until to the extend of being a two timer nor contacting other guys . You already conquer my heart . No space for others . My heart shattered when you pick me up . You glue it back together to make it in one piece . That's when I start to believe that you will be taking good care of me . You pick me up when I'm falling . And now , you raise me up to be a good lady .
One more thing , I don't mind if you wanna go out at night with your friends , it's just that , I want you to inform me what time will you be reaching home and where you wanna go . That's all , coz I could be worried sick ok ? I'm not gonna go out late at night anymore since you won't let me . I don't even care if you starts to control me . Yeah , people might say , you and I are not married yet . But what they don't know is to differentiate between the word boyfriend and men .
You might be harsh on me some times , but yet , I'm still here standing right beside you , still loving you even though you have a stuck up attitude . Again I'm saying , I'm not here , entering in you life and get out just easily . I'm not the person that come and go in your life . I'm the type that come and stay . So I really hope you feel the say way too .
I love you with all my heart , so I really hope you won't disappoint me in the future .
Written at 1:26 AM on Thursday, January 26, 2012 0 comment(s)
Hi , it's been long time since I really last update my blog . And now it's dirty . Anyway , I just wanna wish my boyfriend Happy 10th Monthsarry baby ! You know , at first I didn't imagine that we can go far but well , it proves me wrong . We made it . 10th Monthsarry . We have never have a relationship been this long . On the day of our monthsarry , it was the sweetest thing you did . You didn't even inform me about you coming down here . You called me , and I thought you were just outside your home smoking but instead , you came to my house . Seriously , you give me , mom and brah a good heart attack for a minute there . So you sleep over my house , the next day which is yesterday , I really love the way you treat me (: I love the way you spoil me . And I love the way your hands play with my hair . What I know is now , after yesterday , my feelings towards you keep going stronger . So trust me , when I say I love you , I really mean it . And I hope you mean your words too (:
So next month it's our birthday . (:
I was planning of celebrating together but sadly , you are gonna serve NS soon . But never mind , I've got other plans . And baby , don't worry , as long as I know you love me , I won't make any trouble (: I love you .
Written at 3:09 AM on Wednesday, December 21, 2011 0 comment(s)
I'm someone that
when I care , I care more that it was suppose to be .
when I fall , I fall too deeply .
will stay insecure for some reasons over and over again .
wish giving up is the easy way for me but come to think of it , it doesn't worth it if I give up that easily .
will sometimes get on your nerves .
very weak in heart although strong in the outside .
will always remember everything that happen .
So , tell me now . Can you still endure this attitude of mine that can't be change?
Written at 12:52 AM on Friday, December 2, 2011 0 comment(s)
Hi ! I know it's been long time since I've last update my blog .
Anyway , let's share my stories alright . I've been going a lot of obstacles with my boyfriend . We have a really freak month on the month of November . We quarrel , like 2 or 3 times in one month . It's kind of a bad month for us . So jyeah , I was hoping that December will be a good month for both of us . Not only on December but starting from today onwards . But what ever it is . Both of us is still standing strong now . And I really do appreciate that my boyfriend enter in my circle of life . I really do . Because without him , I will be weak as before . I will be as who I am before . And truthfully , he teach me a lot in this world . I love him . And that's all I could say if you wanna ask me why I love him . I don't have any reason to why I'm in love with him . But one thing for sure . He shower me with love , care and concern that I was hoping that one day , someone would enter in my life and giving me the happiest moments . Be it worst , happy , bad or an excellent moments , I'm willing to go through it with him .
If you wanna ask about my friendS , let me tell you this . I don't need it anymore . Why ? Coz I don't fucking need stupid shits to happen in my life . Where got time ~ Lols . And there's only a FEW that is still standing by my side and especially my family . Fuck the past and kiss the fucking future . (:
Lastly ; bila aku baik tak semestinya kau boleh pijak kepale aku berkali kali . Terasa ? kau nye pasal ^^
P.S; not to my boyfriend , family nor a few of my friend . XD
Written at 2:53 AM on Sunday, November 13, 2011 0 comment(s)
Will be back once im not busy ~ XD