Written at 11:40 PM on Monday, September 27, 2010 0 comment(s)
The beautiful liar <3
Heyhey ! Liya , Owl , Zahari , Buddha and Haikal was in my crib early in the morning , couldn't sleep . After Buddha and Haikal went back , Owl , Zahari and I watch a movie title ' Keramat ' . Scary ? Yes indeed :D . But before that , we three laugh over somthing :D . Liya was asleep so she missed it . After the movie finish , I went to sleep until 4pm . At 5pm I went out with Iqek . Cab down to Owl's block and slack . It's last since we slack , why ? Because of JALAN RAYA(: Me like ! . Anyway , slack until 9pm , cab home and then mom's friends come to Raya . Therefore , I need to help my mom . Currently just updating this bloggy of mine . I know bored la , if bored then fuck off , cey joking aje . Guess I'm going to sleep soon , so NO DISTURBANCE PLEASE !!!!! :D
Boy , i miss you so much , you said what makes it different eventhough you tell me that you miss me , well , it makes me happy . I do still love you . It's hard for me to forget about you . And stop argueing with me ok ! Haha , keje rajin rajin ok ? ((: <3
It feels like now I'm 24 hours with Liya , Owl , Riera and Zahari , LOL !
Not in the mood .
Hey guys , I will just update a little as I don't have much to update actually . Life as pernormal , nothing much different . Yesterday I went Jalan Raya with Liya , Owl , Riera , Lili , Fathul , Buddha , Haikal and Zahari . Should be going out with family , but end up , nahh , I went out with my friend instead , coz my mom reach home late as she is working . Anyway , I guess I'm out of ideas of what I wanna do , haiyooo . Tsktsk , syqiin syqiin . It's ok , I guess I wanna surf the internet instead , and I don't know why , I'm lazy to entertain MSN that much now , tsktsk . Ok la , I'm out , take care (:
Written at 3:44 AM on Sunday, September 26, 2010 0 comment(s)
It will never fade . I'm changing slowly . I love my friends and families .
It seems there's a bit change of my blog , yeap , I own a nuffnang now :D . Anyway , it's been last since I update my blog properly huh ? I was down , too down that I just can't think what to blog about . Since now , I updating like those peeps ask me too . Here goes . Yesterday , I had and open house at my house . Sorry but I only invited a few . And I wanna thanks so much to Farah , Ameer , Liya , Owl , Atoyy , Riera , Sugarenny , Zahari , Haikal , Jaja and Fathul that you come to my open house , I really appreciate it . Early in the morning I quarrel with my father , but afterwards , we both are back together . Karaoke with my mom . Chit chat here and there and so on . Yesterday might not be the best day for me but yet , I really really enjoy yesterday . karaoke lagi yok ! I'm feeling down right now . I can't follow Liya and others today as I need to go out with my family . They already book me before my parents do , it's unfair ! But there's nothing else I can do right now , but to listen to them . Coz I promise myself that I wanna change to be a better person . I don't wanna to label as 'anak derhaka' no way ! Not good ya know . To Cat , it's ok , at least you inform me , but I'm not too sure if I can make it to your house , I need to go out with my family . Sorry Cat , but I will text you to confirm again ok ? I miss you guys , seriously )": . Anyway , Few more subjects under N level and O level to go , and maybe I retain or I off to ITE . Coz I know that I just can't make it to Sec 5 . Yes , I do regret , but I'm looking forward about Pondok 104 will teach me (: . Be it sooner or later , I just hope that I pass my few subjects to get me OUT FROM THAT SCHOOL (: . Thanks (: . What more do I have to say ?
As day pass , I feel lots of regret when I rewind back my past . I was stupid back then , but now , I won't repeat the same old thing . Taking advantage of everything during my stupid attitude was such a nuisance , therefore , I'm doing my best to change myself . And I need your support aites ^^ .
I hope you won't think that I'm giving you high hopes coz I already told you from the start , we are friends , not gonna be more unless you can take away my heart .
To you , I love you still , but , like what you said , love me as a friend and I will love you as a friend too . yes , I'm telling lies now . But , sometimes , I just can' handle it but to lie to myself , I know it's a bad thing to do , but there's nothing much I can do (: .
Enjoy is what you see , but deep down , you don't know what I've went through . Therefore , shut the F up and get a life of yourself , :D KIDDING la idiot -.-' . I'm bored actually , tired and sleepy , I guess , I need to get to sleep soon huh ?
Written at 4:28 AM on Saturday, September 25, 2010 0 comment(s)
I miss you , don't you ?
Things are getting better between me and my brother , I love him ok (: . Anyway , guess I will be start studying soon enough ? Sometimes , I wish I could rewind and change every single thing . Yeap , I've regret every single thing what I've been through this year . But , because of my attitude that sucks , it seems that , now , my brother have talk to me and that should thanks to Fiq . I so wish that Pondok 104 will welcome me with warm hugs (: . Never did I realize that there's people that care for me . I love them , and together with Liya , Owl , CatMeow , Atoyy and espeacially Farah and Ameer . Things are different now . Things between me and Farah are settle . Between me and my brother have been settle too . Oh gosh , it's already 4.20 am but yet I am not asleep ? Sigh* . Gonna gone to lalaland soon . yesterday , eventhough plan was unbelievable but yet , I had fun , but eventually , when we wanted to get back from Yishun to our home , there's no bus left at the Interchange . It sucks ok ! Called Fiq , and thanks to him that he called Mimi to take me . I wish to thank you guys for everything today . After arrived to my destination , slack under my void deck with Mimi for a while . Then at 3plus Iqek came to my house and we share stories . Ok ok , I guess I wanna get to sleep . So tired , my eyes just can't take it anymore . Therefore , goodnight loveones .
Sometimes , in love , you have to learn to be patient . <3
Written at 7:54 AM on Sunday, September 19, 2010 0 comment(s)
Waduh , awak mana pey hot stuff sih untuk gue lancauway tentang lu :P
Sorry ey 123 , siket pun aku tak heran , sebab aku tahu , aku tak lancauway pasal orang and aku nye org straight forward k ? Still not satisfied , then bitch , you are welcome to come and meet me k ? HAHA ! Bopeng ? Sorry la ye yang bapaknye bopeng , LOL . Anyways , I love to meet you soon kk ? Bodoh pey perempuan ^^ . Oh and , buto sama anda balik :D
Anyways , I've got a great day now . I'm moving on but still , he's in my heart <3 . Ok , I'm done , just a bit of updating since my blog is a bit of dust around . Cey fake ^^ . Byebye !
Written at 6:50 PM on Thursday, September 16, 2010 0 comment(s)
Firstly , I wanna appologize to Farah about the changes I've been through . I'm sorry . I know you are disappointed about my behaviour now , so is the rest of my dear friends . I know I have been such a waste . I've lost my way , and I'm still have yet to discover my way of life . Like I've said , agama , I'm lost in it , and I need your help right ? But it's ok now , I've been doing what I'm suppose to do . Being back to who I am the last time , it will takes a long of time and by that , I'm gonna do it slowly , steps by steps , like how I'm gonna do to my education . Yes , I've start all those clubbings and drinking when actually , Allah S.W.T don't want his hamba to go clubbing and drinking . Yeah , I've been such a nuisance , but I've already told you , I'm gonna stop all those things , when I call myself an Islam people . Coz right now , I'm just plain Malay humans that going through her rubbish life and enjoyment . Yes , after I've think about those things , you guys , even the rest , should be prepared who I'm gonna be soon . You have to accept of what decision I'm gonna make . Going to Masjid , you can text me like I've said right ? If I'm outside , therefore I can't . But when I'm still at home , then text me . I'm waiting for you to ask me to go together with you but yet to no avail .
Club friends , sorry , but I'm not gonna entertain club anymore . About drinking , I've already stop long ago . I've already make my decision about how my life is going now . And , tomorrow , is a new fresh day for me . I'm putting my devil aside and I'm gonna do what I'm suppose to do as a child , educated student , as a daughter , as a hamba Allah S.W.T .
Thanks for everything (: <3
Written at 4:05 AM on Wednesday, September 15, 2010 0 comment(s)
I still love you and I always do .
It's a waste I didn't get to talk to you when you were just in front of me , I'm sorry )": . I'm not ready to talk to you yet , but I wanna meet you soon and talk . I really do , and I need your hug): . I miss you so much and words just can't express how i feel .
Someone told me , somtimes , girls need to make the first move and in love you need patience , I will . And soon enough , I will build my courage to let out everything to you . Thus , someone told me , sometimes , you got to fight for love . And I will (: . Trust me , the promises I've given to you , I will always hold on to it . Love , I need you back ((:
8 months and 10 days of friendship . I love you like how I used to , it never fade , and it will never be . see you soon love<3
and to my dear friend , I don't know what's up with you recently , you seems different now . You were mean to me and ameer but you were mean to me more . Have I done something that you probably don't wanna share ? What is wrong with you ? Fine , you say you love your mr right , and you put US aside ? Great , just great . Seriously , you wanna be like this , by all means , I can't force you . And seriously , whatever I've done to make you unhappy or so ever , I'm sorry . If you wanna break this bonding between us three , by all means . I've cried one whole night thinking of why you acting this way towards us . It's so cruel .I'm done here , thanks for everything . I had enough of this .
Written at 2:09 AM on Tuesday, September 14, 2010 0 comment(s)
LU BIKIN GUA PANASSSSSS JE , cey , sungguh fake ! Hai semua ! Syqin nak kata ni , syqin nak ...
TIDUR , k meps , tawu -.-' . Ngantok nye pasal kankan , fuhh , tak boleh tasyiann , nak sleep , k nites , esok esok aru syqin update .. byee !~ <3
Written at 5:49 AM on Monday, September 13, 2010 0 comment(s)
It's already the fourth day of syawal , and yes , I'm so in love with Syawal . Not because of money but , because of the foods I can eat , yummy . Ya know , I ate a lot since the first day of raya ya know . Tsktsk , dashat , I know (: . Not going school today , not sure about tomorrow yet . I'm going out today , meet Dayang<3 , Cat and Owl to Grandlink later on , so jyeah . I've realize I am not active in cyber much anymore huh . So I guess this year , Syawal I will be a single lady huh (: . Unlike last year , there's someone couple with me , but , he pissed me off (: . Recently fight with Atoyy , small matter , kawan rapat boleh gadoh , tapi kita tak akan jadi musoh (: Right Atoyy ??! Swee((: . Anyways , Dayang is so superb rabak , why ? Coz of one reason (: . And now I'm gonna end this blogging , tired , later can't wake up to meet them how ? Confirm confirm kene nag from dayang baby , mangkuk dibuatnya nanti . Off to sleep now , sweetdreams people !~
Written at 5:00 AM on Friday, September 10, 2010 0 comment(s)
BOO !!! SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN KAWAAN-KAWAN SEKALIAN . SYQIN INGIN MENYUSUN SEPULUH JARI TANDA KEMAAFAN ATAS SEGALA KESALAHAN , TERSALAH KATA , TERMAKI , TERPUKUL , TERKASAR , TERTIDUR BILA KENE JUMPA KAWAN , TERAJAR BUKAN BUKAN , BUAT HATI SAKIT/TERLUKA , AND WHATEVER SHIT WITH TER TER , HEH :D , SORRY EY , NGA NGANTOK , TAK BOLEH TASYIAN LOHH .. SO , SENANG JE , KALAU TAK MAAFKAN , TU KAU PUNYA PASAL ! HEH :D , JOKING JEK ^^ . ANYWAYS , ENJOY RAYA !
Kalau sesiapa senang kankan , jom keluar raya dengan syqin ! And sesiapa tu kan , untuk teenagers ey , haha . ok meps , tawuk . nga bored and ngans , tu sebab talk shits . ok da , done , bye ! <3
Yang penting , Payum sayang Dayang ! , HAHA !! <3
Written at 1:06 AM on Monday, September 6, 2010 0 comment(s)
I was unable to update my blog due to my business , hiohio . Anyway , this suppose to update on Friday . The day I went out to meet Liya and Fathul at Tampines . So then off to Bedok since Fathul will be working for a while only . Then at 5pm , we cab to Paya Lebar , off we go to Grandlink . Pedih pedih tau me and Liya <3 . LOL . And , I've got a big secret at the end of the day ey Liya ? Hehe <3 . Well , there's nothing I can do right ? So jyeah . I'm addicted to the song by the title of ' Bila Cinta Didusta ' . Waduh , lagu sungguh pedih sih . Haha . Around 7.20 , Liya and I went to search for Birthday cake , semua kasi jauh2 , nasib la Liya pandai , dekat MRT sana ada cake (: . So we buy and off to Grandlink again . Then at 10.10 I meet Lili , Fyfy , Riera and Ayrah . We took pictures , but they haven't upload yet . And guess what ? I took pictures with Tasha bpk (: . LOL , will upload the picture soon after I get the picture ok ? Ok , N level is just in 6 ours time , I have to get to sleep , and wake up early to hafal more peribahasa , so jyeah , goodnight !
Thanks Liya for that day , I was upset , but yet , ou and Fathul make my day bright . Love korang <3 ((:
Written at 3:34 AM on Friday, September 3, 2010 0 comment(s)
muka syqiin tidak perlu , tahu :P
Anyway , truth hurts , but it doesn't matter to me anymore . If that what you wish for . I will (:
Enough post about you ok . Now , off to my enjoy life . Well , not so much enjoy . I've got tons of plans after Raya <3 . Anyway , will be meeting Liya<3 later . It's a must see her , if not , I guess I will be like a doll at home doing nothing . It's been two days of not sleeping -.-' . ye la , nanti syqiin tidur , ada orang kata syqiin perangai seperti babi , ishk . Haha , ok , that's all . Errmmm , was planning of cousin's outing , can't wait . 5 more days and I have to go to Jurong Division , after two more days it's Hari Raya . Woahh , cepat sangat tu . Akan Raya tahun ini semesra seperti Raya tiga tahun lepas ? )": . I hope so , sigh* . Having a bad Ramadhan , I so hope that Raya will be ok )": .
I'm not giving up , but I do as you wish (:
What more ? ermmm , oh , tadi babi hutan perangai like ASS , tsk ! Kurang ajar , haha . Tadi jumpa dia a while only . Not long -.-' . Lagi pun , syqiin letih . Sekejap lagi syqiin hendak ke lalaland ! Wee !~ I'm off now , pictures for later , will upload soon after having fun ((: .
Written at 7:38 AM on Thursday, September 2, 2010 0 comment(s)
Due to examinations and due to something else , I'm gonna online three times daily ? I will surely update ok ? But , that's if I have something to update . If not that I won't be updating much . Going through a thick life . Like seriously , I wish I can give up , but I can't . And I'm sure , I will be going to ITE Chua Chu Kang with Riera <3 . Ok , I'm off now , Haven't been sleeping . Can't take it when someone tells me something . Oh gosh , be strong Syqiin ! be strong !
To you ; give up just yet ?? You are a LOSER . Sorry . (:
Written at 1:04 AM on Wednesday, September 1, 2010 0 comment(s)
I doubt that I can move on . I can't , promise is always a promise and that promise is sincerely from the bottom of my heart . So to my loveones that asking me to move on , I'm sorry . Love is not that simple , whether I'm hurt , whether I'm alone , but still , my love won't change . What about Hari Raya ? So ? Doesn't mean I need a spare partner to be 1 day partner , no thanks . Even so you match make me with someone else , it's not for you to decide , it's mine and it's my heart to decide .
To sweetalkers ; sorry , your sweetness won't work .
What if he don't love me ?
So ? There's nothing wrong of me being single right ? I'm not troubling you or something right ?
I'm not thinking of your heart ?
I'm sorry , I've already said , I'm not into anyone and I'm not gonna find someone to replace him in my heart .
What if in future ?
Still , he will remain in my heart no matter what . No matter I move on or not , there's part in my heart that's still belongs to him .
Why don't you give up ?
Because love have to go through thick and thin .
If I and him were not meant to be together ?
So ? Like I've said , everyone have their own partner life .
Why don't I just give up ?
Why should I ?
Why can't I give others a chance ?
Damn , you are so annoying , I said , I'm NOT looking for anyone and I will stay as it is .
Stop it , just stop ! I don't get what you people trying to do . Expecting me to give up just like that ? I'm not the type of person that easily give up . And again , I said I'm not into someone , it means I'M NOT !! Of course other than him<3 . Even so you guys are better than him or you guys can take good care of me better than him , I bet , you can't . Sigh* . Just pull yourself back and find other lady ok ? .
yesterday went to woodland for something on , and then off from woodland at 5 , reached home at 6pm . Suppose to go Geylang , but Iqek is so tired and it cancel , then about Riera and Lulu plus Ayrah , suppose to be going with them too , but one by one need to go home . It's ok . There's still Saturday ok babyS (: . So right after buka , at 9pm meet Kak Azura . Someone wants my number , opps , no thanks (: . Anyway , now I'm at home , but I will be going out soon . meeting Kak Azura again ((: <3 . I miss her ya'know . :D . Ok , I guess I'm done . I haven't been sleeping for the one whole day , today not counted yet hor . LOL .
Oh , and now , I'm done going out everyday , I wanna be a good daughter from now on . Da jarang tau syqiin keluar rumah . Now duduk rumah , like nobody bussiness like that . :D . Mama say I can take Comel<3 after Raya )": . Sedihnya syqiin , huhurr .